There were so many things that I would like to voice out loud but somehow it all loss in time. I miss my old self. I just miss it even if can't really remember how I used to be actually and to say that I miss my old self is really an understatement if not laughable.
In actuality I just miss him. I miss having somebody to talk with late night. I miss hearing his voice, talking about everything and nothing. I really don't know how he felt about me but seriously I don't care. I just miss him. I don't even know what went wrong but he just gone MIA. And that was the hardest part, to move on after he went MIA was really hard and I'm still struggling right now.
It will be great if we could talk again after all this. I just need a closure. Then I think I will be fine afterward. No, I really hope I will be fine after I get the closure that I desperately need. But for now I just miss him so so much. And I hate him, I seriously do.
